21 Apr 2007: I still like...

I still like makin' mango cakey's the best...too much fun.

I still pride myself on making EDIBLE decor...

I still smile at mango lily's and mango ribbonette...

WuT!!!



Cake recap blog forthcoming soon.

ps) I also owe Wendizzle and Grimey a cake.

16 Apr 2007: So...

So...#1)

My boyfriend shows me something that strikes me as "ignorant." I say you know what - I don't even like seein the gene pool polluted by anything that dumb. I further added,"I'd like to sock that hoe in the back of her skull..." He laughed and said,"Now Honey that's not so nice, besides she's a bit fragile and might drop into a coma if you hit her." I replied,"That hoe is NOT fragile. Hoes' are not fragile - that hoe is just little..."

He laughed...ridiculously laughed and said,"True enough..."



So...#2)

So...what's the chances of bumping into Wendy Lee @ sushi. hahahha

Freakin' Fabulous. What's the chance of one of her friends from out of town remembering breakfast grill from like 18 months ago - maybe almost 2 years. Wow...and remembering me and Gya were at the stove. hahahhaa.

So...#3)

So...this one is for Joseph. Just coz a man says hello doesn't mean he's trying to hump your egomaniacal ass. There used to be a place in time when greeting and talking was simply civilized behaviour. As for you Joseph, play no further with girlwomen who have violent cases of foinitis. At best, those broads have a 5 year expiry on their facial and when that falls they have neither intellect nor education. Let them be on your arm if you must, but know they have only a momentary place.

So...#4)

So..gangsta grill cometh at Wendy's house. So...bomblette brunch will return since Gya is back from overseas. So...Mattx will host a grandiose Burger B*yaahtches Fete. So...hit me with the dates kids.

07 Apr 2007: Mental snacks and Mental Vomit

Just some light spewing. I don't have my digii cam cable so this will be uber short...By next week I'll go home to pick up clothes and the cable.
...My birthday dinner...
Last month was my birthday. We went to sushi on Mom even though she's overseas and that was in addition to 2 more gifts from her. It was my brother Rommel, my sister Keyla + her homie Xtina, My godbrother Leo, the fabulous Wendizzle + her best friend from Calie now rooted in the East Coast AND Julian and Myself. I have to say that we had trays upon trays brought to the table and when I say Trays I mean it. Everyone was in a jolly excited mood. I rarely use that word Jolly but it fit the dinner. We were recounting tales of how Mom used to crack us up as kids and how Rommel scared Keyla with her own damn Teddy Ruxpin (sp)!!! It was the first time that Julian really sat down with Rommel just to chill since they'd only met in passing once. I must say he did smashingly well just by being HIMSELF. I must say it is an extreme relief when your brother and sister like your new boyfriend and trust your smiling laughter as opposed to the disdain and disgust they had for my previous choice. Things are as they should be...Ironically, it felt so familiar even though it's all new .
I have to add that Mommy Mei also took me to Korean dinner (yuh, yay, yummy) and blessed me with a lovely gift certificate and love. Katie couldn't make it coz she was sick but still took the time to drop off a perfect gift of a blank journal and fabulous matching pen.

...Passing thought 1...
Being around my family, and Wendy and Mommy Mei (owns the dessert lounge) reminds me constantly of my upbringing. We were praised occasionally but moreso encouraged to improve and surpass ourselves.
I have constantly seen instances where children are being praised for their mediocre work. Newsflash people --- if you praise mediocre work then you produce a mediocre person. I don't feel that praise should be overemphasized when something done is basic or bare. I used to wonder why so many people are attention whores as opposed to stalwart faced go getters...it's because their parents didn't expect or want any better.
The people in my circle don't have a bigger brain...we were simply taught to utilize MORE of what we have. Harder classes, constantly good grades, 2nd languages, 3rd languages, learning musical instruments, church, "recreational" reading, only PBS tv, martial arts, sports, volunteer work, work for Mom Catering, work at the grandparents store, student activities, social activities, travelling and more travelling, watch your cousins, trim up the backyard, dress well, act well, have table manners, have sympathy and empathy, develop tolerance, supress your urge to misact...and many other things.
Mind you these things were in constant stream. It's not like we ever got breaks even as young children. If my paternal grandfather came over or we were there and sleeping in...he would wake us up and say,"Wake up, good fortune is passing you while you sleep. Hard working people have luck" It was a given that we constantly learn and still "act right" Because cutting up would equal getting your jacket adjusted while my smiled with her Kung Fu Glare sayin' "wait til I get your little ass in the car" in Filipino. Ah such a lovely fear.
But I'm grateful. Coz now adversity and challenge isn't shit. I'm so happy that I wasn't raised in mediocrity. When your head is "grown" life is much more straightforward. When you hustled from the stroller, adult grinding is just child's play. Yanno? I know the face of my family very well.
...Passing thought 2...
Yesterday in the lobby I noticed a white lady with 4 asian daughters. One of them saw me walk by with a cake and she was so fascinated with my eyes and dark skin. She walked up to me and said,"Hi." I smiled and said,"hello." She asked me,"Are you Asian..." I replied,"yes..." She was staring at my skin with fascination so I added,"God left me in the oven for awhile until I was done...I'm Filipino baby..." She smiled and went back to the table and bossed her sisters about. Bwaa hahhaa
I told Julian...of the 4 sisters --- THAT is the child who will have fire...
But my thought is this. I've been seeing it so often in the Phoenix Metro Area. Caucasians with Asian Baby's...Is it really possible for housecats to raise Tigers?
There are qualities that you are gifted by an Asian Mother...one of them is graceful societal maneuvering. Another of them is how to hustle and grind without sacrificing your feminine beauty...a favorite is how to love others by SHOWING it in actions as opposed verbal proclamatios...piety versus pimping...alliances versus acquaintances...untainted loyalty...unspoken language (this is the most valuable)...how to say NO even if you do love someone...the list goes on. A lot of these things you SEE in action and observe. You pay attention and absorb. You often have no clue until you ripen into your womanhood and then it is like light being shed on your head and suddenly you can parlay all that into game.
I'm sure in some capacity these couples feel they are making a contribution in some Global manner...but I don't like it and I don't think I ever will.
I won't speak any further on this until later.
...Passing thought 3...
Don't call me "sis" if you are just a pain in my ass. I don't treat my siblings flippantly and I'm not here to make their life harder. I just don't like it when people use that word as a buffer instead of telling themselves the truth...you ain't anybody's brother, you are barely a man. Don't mistake my propriety for actually liking you. Take that bullshit somewhere...coz if my brothers acted so poorly - I'd say hello with a bat.
...Passing thought 4...
If you must stare just say hello.
...Passing thought 5...
Don't go to In N Out Burger with 2 of your homies and wait in a long ass line at midnight only to reveal to your friends that you have no money. That ain't even broke no mo'...that's just BROKEN.
...Passing thought 6...
Don't hate on my tokidoki...I was getting coffee and the lady in front of me had a 9 year old daughter, a coach purse, and a pinky toe hangin off the side of her flipflops like a dog tryin' to get air out a moving car. Her daughter looked at me and I smiled and said,"hi Kiddo..." She smiled back and said,"OMG...is THAT a tokidoki..." I said yahhhh...Her mom turned and looked at me with this seething haterism. Her daughter said did you get it at Macy's...I said oh..my Mom got it for me. She smiled. Then I leaned forward and said,"How cool of my Mom huh...you should have YOUR mommy get you one a little one..." She's like "YEAHHH."
Hate on me...I'll hit you in your finances. Bwaa hahahha.
...Passing thought 7...
I'll be joining Wendizzle in some nightlife soon. Everything at work is manageable and easy and I can even cut the labor down until Mother's day. Here I come. It's short skirt season - bwaa hahhaa. We're gonna make people cry...it's gonna be so fun.
...Passing thought 8...
LA in May with my Korean Princesses
Chicago in June with my fabulous boyfriend
SF in July also with my fabulous boyfriend
>>> Did I mention I got a free plane ticket - hahahhaha <<<
...Passing thought 9...
Hold onto your hats...I'm going to church for Easter this year instead of working. I've worked every holiday for the last 2 years including 1 Christmas. I even got a dress and everything. You guys can't wait to see the pics huh.
...Passing thought 10...
Moving through uncharted waters unafraid is the only way to move...
Stopping to dance once a day is required living...
I now smile from the inside...

e.

12 Mar 2007: Don't Worry

Don't worry...I haven't fallen off

I'm just super duper uber busy...

Just buildin' ridin' and glidin.

But I'll be back in a hot minute...promise

I miss all you guys but I just can't stretch 24 hours that long.

and if you miss me that much

just call and come over for a midnight supper...

Julian and I have them almost every night...

I promise the view from cloud 9 is great.

Gya's out of town so Bomblette's is moved to end of month...

Holla if you have a special request...

Kzo gets a Holla for perfect attendance...(jeez I need a haircut)

Wendizzle is back from her Asia Tour...we are still in love...

And it isn't just coz we love her...but Julian and I agree

she is the most gorgeous ever and most gorgeous in the pageant.

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sigh...so much to do and so little time. But I'm makin' it happen

Off to the bank and errands - Ciao everyone.

20 Feb 2007: Auntie Saucy in the Freakin' House

My "Little" sister just told me I'mma be an auntie again in October. Ahhhhh Fabulous. I'm so very excited...My big grill will live on in those kiddo's.

My sister and the first godbebe EVER...

Trick or Treat gimme Mochi to eat...

My little brother Lee with the youngest one...I can't believe Lee is a chef now...how'd we go from being little kids walkin' around Ocean Beach and Pacific Beach to cheffin' it up in the West/Southwest...

Tank...stuntin' at his best. He reminds me so much of Rommel when we were little especially with that Bruce Lee hair and those teardrop shaped eyes and if you could only see the mischievous leaps he does and crazy laughter...it's like he's a livin' picture of our older brother. The girls ain't got a chance.

I see you guys have been kickin' it at Archie's Diner...I love my godbebe's hardface...but that could just be my vanity kickin' in.

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June will be here soon enough and we will take a little trip to Sedona and Havasu...in my crazy sister and crazy brother in laws "PASSENGER" van with massage seats and dvd screens. Bwaa hahahha. I hope they like Kung Fu...coz that's what I'm watchin...

Family really is forever...

19 Feb 2007: i am NOT on a soy milk tetra pak carton

I know I know...I've been missing for a week. But that ain't my face on the organic Soy Milk Carton. Everything has been really bonkers and I actually managed to catch a cold in the last few days. The hostess with the mostessest (the fabulous 7th letter) was also a touch under the weather. Hence Bomblette's Brunch is moved to this upcoming Saturday. I will also be bringing a birthday cake for Crash - so someone better bring the Bailey's. So mark your calendars Saturday the 24th of February...if you are bringing anything or would like to bring anything tell Gya or Myself.

...on homecookin' versus takeout...

Jalapeno Ham Fried Rice

Chicken with Sweet Potato and Cabbage.

...I rarely go out to eat that much with the exception of the Diner, Korean food, Pete's Fish and Chips, Bobby Q, and of course the Ninja Sushi lately. This is the thing...I've finally lived here long enough to find a really awesome produce guy (hey Fred) - with a beautiful Farmer's Market in Guadalupe --- walkin' in there is a feast for your eyes and an enjoyable visit everytime. I will dedicate a future blog to that. I've also found a great butcher and fish monger. So now makin' meals is the only way to go. I'm not going to go so far as to say that I'm cooking macrobiotically or even organically - but we have managed to squeeze in 6 portions of fruits and veggies per day.

...Julian laughingly called his shirt young coz the sleeves and shoulders of his favourite dress shirt were tight. And don't let me talk about those dress slacks. I covered my mouth so I wouldn't laugh out loud. He said I can see your eyes laughing. I told him - people would kill for that metabolism of yours...everything he eats is turning into muscle. You would think that he works out all the time with that physique...but does 100 pushups every few days really count? I told him it's funny...you are just eating what my family would call "regular" food --- I haven't even started fortifying it with herbs and roots. He just laughed and said,"I'm growin' kid" Bwaa hahahhaa.

I've never seen anyone repulsed by fast food but he is.

...that's no joke though. Rocky's brother who is like 24 yrs old went overseas for a few months and came back 2 inches taller. Katie's brother who is like 6'9" just grew an inch and a half at age 29. I think that if you eat homecooked and heart forged meal and you still have residual HGH in your system it is very possible to continue growth. So is it the combination of hard food and soft enzymatic food plus the energy you pour into it while you cook? Is it understanding what your body needs and flirting with menu's. I dunno...It's not science to me --- I kind of approach it how a dj approaches a dancefloor - freestyle with a good solid background in your classics. They burn on the turntables and I burn on the stove. Feel me?

...on Valentine's related stuff...

I made a cake for my boyfriend. Neopolitan gelato (erm: chocolate,strawberry and roasted almond). I also threw some chocolates I'd made for him specifically...coz he played his cards right and he's deceptively angelic...hahhaha

Cake Detail...

Picture of Mr. Man ever so tickled with his cake...

I'mma adjust the flash setting even though us brown people need high flash.

...Truth be told I must really dig him a LOT...coz I was makin' quite a few cakes throughout the week but I already had his cake in mind. I never made a real cake for my exes. It's funny but my friends would often get cakes way before my ex who was generally unappreciative of them anyway so why bother. He would often just grunt his thanks and go do whatever he felt like doing. But with Julian everything is fun and exciting even if it may have been a mundane task already done in the past. But yeah...I survived the Valentines Cake Thang:

Choco Peanut Butter...

Choco PB Cup Detail...

Last Minute White Choco Pieces on Choco Gelato

...I won't lie...after about 6 days of consecutive cakes I was totally burnt out on hearts and chocolate. Sometimes just the smell of sweets makes my belly ache and I yearn for the earth scent of barbecue or tepanyaki grill. Still...it was touching to see men ordering these heart shaped cakes and putting a LOT of thought into what they were selecting for their wife/girlfriend. This applied to the forever married and the newly married: It was so sweet to see that contemplative look wash over a person's face as they made their choice. The day after Valenteezy Day..a couple of the customers came in to compliment me and ask about length of storage...a couple of them called to say thank you and i did a wonderful job. That's okay with me..that's a lot better than Hate Mail. haha. When a woman in her 50's can throw you a thank you with a youthful girlish look on your face - you are doin' your shit right...

...on the time I ate some humble pie...

So a couple days prior to the above pic being taken...One of the managers hands me a form and leans in and says okay Kid...this is the deal - blue writing and red icing - tiramisu on bottom and roche on top. I was just baffled. I looked at him like DUUUUUUDE...how am I going to make red and blue and brown and white work without it lookin' all 4th of July...He's like Make it happen you are good at this shit. I kept thinkin' maybe the party has a theme, maybe those are his favorite colours...I usually get bored of tryin to think shit up after about a day coz something else has caught my mental interest.

I don't walk around thinkin' I have the market cornered on taste yanno.

Day after the cake is picked up the lady who ordered it called to thank us and spoke to me specifically. Very very sweet lady and that was a great surprise because she is also very attractive. It was humbling for me to hear how much everyone enjoyed it and she looked forward to getting another for Father's Day for him. She also advised me that even though the cakes are a bit pricey and they aren't "rich and stuff" with 2 kids...it made me look at cake in another way through another set of eyes...she made monetary room to get her husband something good...it just goes to show that if it's the thought that counts then think a good thought.

...on Ninja Sushi...

The fearsome foursome were at it again...

Wendy Stuntin' Sushi Style...

Sushi Detail...and my lovely extra wasabi ginger on the side

Don't let your boyfriend do Sake Bombers on an empty stomach...

Bwaa hahhahahhahhahahha.

Do NOT mess with my friends...they are NOT playin'...

This one below is my fave. I love Wendy's Miss Asia Arizona Contestant pose: I didn't realize my skirt was a little young that night. haha

I miss my Wendizzle already coz she's whooopin' it up in Asia for Chinese New Years...Lunar Empress is on the move. She doesn't smear through hoods - she smears through continents, but she'll be back soon enough...My girl Leslie is comin' in April so you all better make way...Bwaa hahahha. My Korean Posse has it in the works for May - so you better pull your shell toes on boys...coz your feelin's are gonna get hurt. Also, my "sister" sister is comin with the Spring Flowers...so get ready for 6ft of beautiful pain. Arizona ain't ready. Believe THAT. I'm just laughin....so NOT ready...

...on Green means go...

I have to just say everything is full of joy lately. The sound of moving trains on a background of periwinkle sunrise. The silhouette of someone you love against half opened blinds. Piggyback rides in the house that are fast and dangerous. Surprises always surprises that make you round eyed then smile. Tokyo movies in front of 2 pairs of beautiful eyes. Laughter in all your waking hours even apart. Never running out of things to talk about. A helping hand and words that make you stronger. Strong outside and Strong inside. Strong apart yet a force together. Your friends telling you,"you all are sick, but I want that illness someday..."

Contagious.

13 Feb 2007: On Valentines Eve...

Love in all it's manifestations...will always be heard and felt and known...

...on Family Love...

My family has always loved me even if they have never understood me completely. It wasn't always easy to love someone who's love affair was with the eccentric, the odd, the artistic and sometimes the strange. What they did know completely is that they believed that I would do what I needed to do and if I fell from attempting anything they were always there to renew my strength and smiles. What they did always show me was faith and belief that I am somebody. What they always expressed that I would always BE somebody.

And now I am.

...on Friends Love...

My Batches and my Boys...never discouraged but always encouraged. Some of them for only decades and some of them for only months. But the Love has always been immeasurable. Their presence isn't compared to bein in my heart but moreso as being a part of my spine. When people love you and metamorphosize from friends into a family of your own they are bonded to you. I love you all exponentially...

...on Career Love...

Finally, I am doing something I love. It was a long journey to switch from an IT gig to a creative gig but I regret none of it. Because of the love I've shown my work it is now loving me back. It is evident with how busy I've become.

...on Food Love...

Shaking heads, stuffed mouths followed by smiles and wordless mumbling, the scent of anything calling children from downstairs, anticipation of meals to be partaken and all the motions and emotions surrounding it - it's the other love I carry around me. Where before I cooked out of ethnic training and habit - now I cook out of genuine enjoyment and love. This is going to leak into all parts of my life...I feed you all coz I love you and not because I "should."

...on Self Love...

In the days prior to living poetically, I would "lose" myself in helping another. Now I am myself all the time and am never asked to be anyone else but ME all the time. Even that shmarmy smartass chick, or the demanding hello kitty lovin' girl, or the badass female with a stroll that could kill. Now I am just me and who could ask for anything more. I love myself without conceit - only with a desire to improve myself and the positive uptempo...

...on Romantic Love...

How could I resist?

When I first met Julian I shook him (I tried to shake him) off because I was a dating monster. I would walk out on dates if anything big or small displeased me and the feelings of whomever took me was irrelevant. He never did take that behaviour off of me and would laugh and say,"Quit playin' girl, come sit near me..." Ironically, he only invites me close to enjoy my verve. Everything we do is an adventure to him, a date, a walk, a talk, reading books side by side, shopping, eating out or cooking meals together. The amount of time we have been "together" is far surpassed by the communion we have together. How could you resist anyone who stops everything to dance with you. How could you resist anyone who doesn't fear potential anger. How could you resist anyone who laughs in the face of danger. How could you resist anyone who coated the hook he caught you with --- well, wiith sugar. How could you resist anyone who actively thanks higher powers for what you have together and what you have apart. How could you resist anyone who rises and sleeps with a smile on his face. How could you resist anyone who finds you beautiful even when you are asleep. How could you resist anyone who eggs you on to amplify your abilities while bringing his own.

As Suga Free says,"Don't no woman want no man who will roll over for her."

The other night we realized at a party that we knew each other by 2 degrees of separation. That even if we hadn't met at the Talib Kweli gig, it was only a matter of time before we met. Whoa.

What we got makes your stomach drop and your mind explode.

...on tomorrow...

So enjoy tomorrow everyone. In any way and everyway...because you may think otherwise but there is some kind of love in your life - and THAT should be celebrated. When you are doing what you are supposed to do and doing it with everything you've got - ultimately the rest of your life will follow.

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"If I ask you questions the questions are to answer doubts I needed to let go. It is not to question the perfection in which we live."

--- Saucerina